mynewhate

I have dealt with depression/anxiety for more than about a decade, I'm 25 now. I was on experience project for a long time and was sad when it shut down.

My struggles are severe, I have a psychiatrist. Am very shy but used to be even more shy. I'm on wellbutrin. Have been on other meds, have attempted suicide multiple times. I crave social interaction but am scared of it. I've been in group therapy, support groups, been in psychiatric wards after multiple suicide attempts. I get obsessed with people easily.

Every day I have like 7-10 moments of me wanting to say something/text something etc. and because of my anxiety I don't do it. Cause of how scary it is for me. And people around me have said in the past that they know I want to say something but something's holding me back. And without saying what I want to it makes me feel bad. I'm so scared of rejection in every form tbh. It's easy to lie behind a computer and act like a negative interaction isn't effecting me, but it does.

There is a lot more but I'm not good at organizing thoughts, I really want a supportive gf.