I Use Music As Therapy For the Soul

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The lyrics deeply resonate with me. I still have a long way to go. I'm never going to be who I was before. There is a huge hole that won't be filled by anything except having my son back and I can't have him back. The only thing I can do is plug the hole with the me that has to go forward. It's a strange place to be the same and yet not the same at all... and figuring how to make the one who lived a few months ago match up to the one who is living now. I hope to figure it out.

-Raven

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neoalphamtx · 46-50, M

Kind of reminds me of how Frodo felt at the end of the final Lord of the rings film. He had taken the sword to his shoulder from the Nazgul and although he was part of the team that defeated the dark lord he knew he could never go home again, it just was no longer his place, and nothing could change that. That wound would never heal....

I feel for you because this is likely where you stand, but the beautiful thing is this marks your journey in a more stark way. Your love as a mom and your sacrifice, all the laughter and now all the pain are all wrapped up in one and they are you, and they are beautiful.

You will figure this out...that I have no doubt

ravenwind43 · 51-55, F

@neoalphamtx well said and thank you☺

neoalphamtx · 46-50, M

@ravenwind43 certainly 😉