I Must Have Music In My Life
I think I have shaved away nearly all my interests in life. Nothing moves me like when I was 15 or 16. I have no more words. I feel like there is something I want but cannot seem to attain. The only thing that moves me is music. Even that is fading. I apologize for seeming so depressed or even unemotional. There are enough people in the world who are sad and uninspired. That's the word - uninspired. I feel so uninspired and unable to function around others.
When I'm alone and have headphones on, I can listen to bands like Bane's World, Imogen Heap, Mother Mother, Tame Impala, My Brightest Diamond, Drake, Dance Gavin Dance, The Mars Volta - a lot. I listen to all kinds of music. Trap music, vaporwave, indie, post-hardcore, prog rock, instrumental, candy pop, etc. I feel like whatever I am wanting is closer when I listen to music. Yet, now, even music is starting to lose me. I think I need more bands to listen to. I have exhausted my playlist, almost as if I'm raping it to trace myself desperately to my origin. Hm. I have no more words.
When I'm alone and have headphones on, I can listen to bands like Bane's World, Imogen Heap, Mother Mother, Tame Impala, My Brightest Diamond, Drake, Dance Gavin Dance, The Mars Volta - a lot. I listen to all kinds of music. Trap music, vaporwave, indie, post-hardcore, prog rock, instrumental, candy pop, etc. I feel like whatever I am wanting is closer when I listen to music. Yet, now, even music is starting to lose me. I think I need more bands to listen to. I have exhausted my playlist, almost as if I'm raping it to trace myself desperately to my origin. Hm. I have no more words.
26-30, F
