I was listening to a song called 'Gloomy Clock' by IU ft Jonghyun. Forgot that the song existed and how much I could relate to the lyrics. The song may sound upbeat but the lyrics are quite depressing. And I suppose that was how Jonghyun felt all these years when he was alive. He must have suffered years before he decided to take his own life the other day.
"You did well, you worked hard. You were a beautiful soul and a talented artist. Our love for you and the music you have left in the world will be carved into our hearts eternally. Good night, Jonghyun."