So So & So 2005!!

@RunTheJulz it's perfectly understandable if you're not as organized now because of the pain, and I know it is easier said that done, perhaps by a wide margin, but if you can at all, even for brief bursts of time, please try to not let it add to your anxiety, stress, frustration, you already have enough as it is and don't need more. You're not defeated as long as you are still living 🤗🤗🤗

@BlueGreenGrey I appreciate your perspective and I am still trying and still breathing. I just don’t often feel like I’m still living. Existing is perhaps the more accurate description of what I’m currently doing.

@RunTheJulz I understand this, and while I've certainly not endured the physical trials you have, I do understand a little the feeling of just existing, just simply from my own experience of depression when it was at its worst. Everything is perfect now of course, it's not as dark as it was then, and back then I didn't ever believe it would ever be better. Maybe if you only focus on today and living one day at a time and don't assume that tomorrow will be like today, maybe tomorrow will surprise you. And certainly, maybe the following day will let you down again, but then maybe the third or fourth day(s) surprise you again, and even the smallest experience you have that day will feel more like living and less like existing, and you should seek to collect all of those moments you can 🫂🫂🫂