Full day once again - I am indeed changed.
I met with 4 people today.
First one meeting was "accidental",
one meeting with a friend was arranged,
one more meeting with another friend,
and then another accidental visit where I helped the landowner with something.
What has changed in me is that, I was able to have a better viewing of our relating and the happenings,
whether I had control over them or not - especially the first and last meetings that weren't chosen by me, I felt pretty much like a puppet to them old ladies, even if I appreciate them, I was seeing how they would pull my energy and I would appear to them just at the right timing.
Nothing right, nothing wrong, only being aware.
And returning back, I was able to look back to our relating and conversations, all of them, with a well known exhaustion of having over-extended myself, but this time, empty from guilt, or any other feeling-thought that would say " you should have done things differently " , " you should say something via message to change that " , " you will have time in the future to show them " or any other of the casual thoughts that wanted my interactions to be kept within a specific STORYLINE.
A mantra I keep on telling myself the last period is "DROP THE STORY" and I keep on reciting my mantra:
in order to be fully present in the moment and to experience the freshness of being, one needs to drop the narratives and allow for true, CURRENT creativity to arise.
I love you.
This doesn't mean that I won't put myself first, or I want protect myself against you, if that is needed, but that means that, I am here for you, for when I can and for as much as I can, depending on my capacity of the moment, to listen to you, to exchange, to help, to hug, to witness.
🌄💜🍏
First one meeting was "accidental",
one meeting with a friend was arranged,
one more meeting with another friend,
and then another accidental visit where I helped the landowner with something.
What has changed in me is that, I was able to have a better viewing of our relating and the happenings,
whether I had control over them or not - especially the first and last meetings that weren't chosen by me, I felt pretty much like a puppet to them old ladies, even if I appreciate them, I was seeing how they would pull my energy and I would appear to them just at the right timing.
Nothing right, nothing wrong, only being aware.
And returning back, I was able to look back to our relating and conversations, all of them, with a well known exhaustion of having over-extended myself, but this time, empty from guilt, or any other feeling-thought that would say " you should have done things differently " , " you should say something via message to change that " , " you will have time in the future to show them " or any other of the casual thoughts that wanted my interactions to be kept within a specific STORYLINE.
A mantra I keep on telling myself the last period is "DROP THE STORY" and I keep on reciting my mantra:
in order to be fully present in the moment and to experience the freshness of being, one needs to drop the narratives and allow for true, CURRENT creativity to arise.
I love you.
This doesn't mean that I won't put myself first, or I want protect myself against you, if that is needed, but that means that, I am here for you, for when I can and for as much as I can, depending on my capacity of the moment, to listen to you, to exchange, to help, to hug, to witness.
🌄💜🍏
