I've been thinking of you since I read of your loss. I know it is hard and yes, it is. But with time and you getting up each day and finding ways to welcome that day, it will get better. I promise it will.
@Justmeraeagain I wish I had the answer, that magic bullet, but I don't. What I do know is that you, as most do, are going to feel stuck for a period of time. It will get better and at the moment I know that helps you little... I get it. Just come here and talk away. We're here for you.
Grieving sucks. Losing him was so hard, but at least you still have your children and grandchildren. Have you sought out any grief counseling? Some churches offer it for free.