i used to be a hopeless romantic

I always thought there were soul mates and people you were supposed to meet and people you would be with forever. I believed in love and love at first sight. I believed in faithfulness. i used to love love songs and romantic quotes. i always wanted my significant other to gift me some flowers. I couldn't wait for the day when i would get married and have a family of my own that i wound raise up better than i was raised

i married my high school sweetheart we had a child together. he had a lot of mental illness to begin with but progressively was getting worse. he began doing meth and started getting worse and worse and I had to leave him. years pass and I give dating another go. it's great and perfect and wonderful and I just knew he was the one. Little did I know he was a 21-year-old full-blown abusive alcoholic.

he isolated me from all of my friends and family, beat me nearly to death numerous times, put me in the hospital, gave me numerous concussions. then he would give me a huge bouquet of flowers the next day like that was supposed to fix everything. i hate flowers now

my friend's husband of decades apparently cheated on her with another woman they have three kids together they range from ages 12,10, and 3. he was telling this woman he loved her and all this and that.

both of my significant others cheated on me. the abusive one cheated on me for two months with some girl leaving me at home every night with our newborn baby at the time. he was telling her things like he was glad she was on her period so he could nut in her

I was letting the music play on youtube and a love song comes on. i roll my eyes and immediately change it. ironically i can't help but remember a time when they were my favorite.