Hi, I'm 14 and I'm in an almost identical situation. I feel the same, although I can't say I know exactly what you're going through as I don't know your situation 100% but I can say that I care. I know you won't believe me because I'm a stranger on the internet and the little degrading part of your brain will tell you that no one cares and will give you reasons. My brain tells me that too. I've come so close to death about a year ago and one of my online gaming friends saved me. My point is that you can talk to people even if they're online, they care. I'm always here if you need to talk/vent :)