Plague to my mind

Ive been thinking about cannibalism more frequently than before and its not a passing thought like it used to be but a fantasy that i think about often. In my fantasy i meet someone who's willing and consenting to being cannibalized. My only issue is the realistic nature of said fantasy both legally and my mentality. If i were to meet said person then and there and they were a stranger i wouldn't have a problem nor connection with it. Only if i were to have known the person for some time i would have latched a certain attachment to them thus making the killing and cooking process more difficult. I would have to make the process quick knowing i have a tendency to easily attache myself to someone.