Funny that you called yourself my best friend. I feel completely disconnected from you in every way possible.
There are so many things that would have slipped my attention, if it weren't for my recent experiences. Grief emphasized all the flaws.
The problem isn't the grief itself. It is the environment . I am stuck with the realization that despite everything I have done for people like you I was not and will never be treated with love.
Admiration and love are different things.
The first is more selfish. It is about what we wish to see in other people finally fulfilled. And perhaps what we wish we could have been.
Love stays and supports regardless of them not meeting our expectations.
Love.
You made your choices. But I know , also, this world has shaped you in such ways. You are a product of a hyper-consumerist culture that feeds on itself. You're the product while you constantly seek out to do the same to others, subconsciously or consciously.
And I look at you and I don't know how to make you understand all these differences between us. I don't think it is even worth it.
The problem isn't the grief itself. It is the environment . I am stuck with the realization that despite everything I have done for people like you I was not and will never be treated with love.
Admiration and love are different things.
The first is more selfish. It is about what we wish to see in other people finally fulfilled. And perhaps what we wish we could have been.
Love stays and supports regardless of them not meeting our expectations.
Love.
You made your choices. But I know , also, this world has shaped you in such ways. You are a product of a hyper-consumerist culture that feeds on itself. You're the product while you constantly seek out to do the same to others, subconsciously or consciously.
And I look at you and I don't know how to make you understand all these differences between us. I don't think it is even worth it.
