I Am In Love With Someone I Can't Have

Lock the feelings in a box, and put on a brave face. It's pretty much all I can do at this point. So much I want to say to express myself to him, but if it ruins what we've got it's just not worth it. I think he pretty much knows how I feel, and sometimes I get the feeling he may feel the same. However, there's a long complicated past that is a huge blocker. Not only that so many other complicated factors that I shall not bother you with here. Practically going insane, every time I hear him say he likes another girl it's like being shot with in the heart. Putting on a mask, and controlling my words gets tiring at times. He is worth it though. To just talk about the most random things, and know I'm making him laugh is more than worth any pain I can endure. Soon enough the locked feelings in a box will be forgotten. Just give me time I can do this. It's for him so it doesn't strain the friendship. So he can talk to me without feeling awkward about it.