I Loved Someone Whom I Cant Have

well i have mention about my ex urooj my first love who broke me apart and left me all alone . after urooj i met a girl on ep her name is maimoona. she is the most wonderfull person i met she one of the kind we known eacch other from last two years . she really supported me . she became a close frnd. then we started having feelings for each other. but she didnt spoke up tht she love me. we decided not too talk more . coz we cud fall in love and her family is very conservative they wont support her. and she couldnt go against them then time pass. after 6 month she accidently contct me .thnks to my frnd owais(he. is also on ep) well we talked again and fall in love again this tym she said she loved me and will be there for me. we were in relation for 8 months she knew my condition wht i have been throught how much i m broken apart. some how she she brought me back in life from her love .. she truely loved me i loved her too. but i cant go like this . i asked her to marry .e she said she wana study more. i am ok with it but i want surety from her i asked her to talk to her perants about us coz she have 5 years to complete her studies. i wana get engaged to her . i dont want to end up again heart broken after getting too much invlove in her. well she had fights also she didnt have a guts to talk to her perrants . in last she choose not to tlk to her perants and broke up with me. we loved each other but i guess we werent meant to be together. :( once maimoona asked me a question why would god made her meet me. i answered her tht to be with me for ever or to teach her a lesson so tht she could move frwd in life. i guess god wanted to teach her a lesson . i was broken all part so god didnt care tht much he broken me once again. he knew i will some how survive . :( i love u maimoona i really do love u . but i guess we cnt be together . :(