Never Again ~ Past my Skin
by: Rob Paquin
Accountability
Is that your final word
It seems that you won't pick it up
It seems I can't be heard
But I don't really give a fuck
Because despite how down I've been
I've realized that I'm looking through your eyes
And that's not who I am
But yeah, if all the blame is coming
And your version needs a villain
Then I can accept the blame
And type it out like a sesquipedalian
Maybe I'll turn it into a rhyme
Where our love loss was just my fault
Or maybe I will type some lines
That it casts your story into doubt
Or maybe..., just a maybe...
I won't type at all
But if I ever claimed to say that
Under lies I'd need to fall
Because I can type most anything
I can accept and process blame
Although I am saddened to know
That this is my last game
I'll never let another person
Further than my skin
As I close down my heart
And let my soul cave in
Life is such a fucked-up thing
And it grows more desolate as you age
I find myself too tired now
To dance across it's stage
I wish you all the best in life
I hope you find the love you dream of
I'm sorry that I wasn't him
I just can't be what you scream of
You asked me to take a thousand steps
I was nearing to that mark
All the CBT's and Shadow work
There inside my dark
But nothing was ever near enough
to get me closer to your dreaming
Because in the endless chase of you
I was simply left there screaming
Another moment where I reacted
A reaction that I paid for
But once I paid my hefty toll
The thing I reacted to was no more
I tried to be exactly
As you had prescribed
But every concession that I made
A piece of me just died
In the end you said in words
That it was I that was losing out
But in the end, as I saw it
We both were filled with doubt
And now we sit here in our takes
Mine accepting. Yours of blame
I sit and take in all the facts
I think we both lost in this game
But I can be the bad guy
I can be the villain
I can be the only thing
that brought us both to ruin
And maybe you'll console yourself
With the way I took it all
But I think that fact says something
And yet, still I'll take the fall
~The Snowdog
Accountability
Is that your final word
It seems that you won't pick it up
It seems I can't be heard
But I don't really give a fuck
Because despite how down I've been
I've realized that I'm looking through your eyes
And that's not who I am
But yeah, if all the blame is coming
And your version needs a villain
Then I can accept the blame
And type it out like a sesquipedalian
Maybe I'll turn it into a rhyme
Where our love loss was just my fault
Or maybe I will type some lines
That it casts your story into doubt
Or maybe..., just a maybe...
I won't type at all
But if I ever claimed to say that
Under lies I'd need to fall
Because I can type most anything
I can accept and process blame
Although I am saddened to know
That this is my last game
I'll never let another person
Further than my skin
As I close down my heart
And let my soul cave in
Life is such a fucked-up thing
And it grows more desolate as you age
I find myself too tired now
To dance across it's stage
I wish you all the best in life
I hope you find the love you dream of
I'm sorry that I wasn't him
I just can't be what you scream of
You asked me to take a thousand steps
I was nearing to that mark
All the CBT's and Shadow work
There inside my dark
But nothing was ever near enough
to get me closer to your dreaming
Because in the endless chase of you
I was simply left there screaming
Another moment where I reacted
A reaction that I paid for
But once I paid my hefty toll
The thing I reacted to was no more
I tried to be exactly
As you had prescribed
But every concession that I made
A piece of me just died
In the end you said in words
That it was I that was losing out
But in the end, as I saw it
We both were filled with doubt
And now we sit here in our takes
Mine accepting. Yours of blame
I sit and take in all the facts
I think we both lost in this game
But I can be the bad guy
I can be the villain
I can be the only thing
that brought us both to ruin
And maybe you'll console yourself
With the way I took it all
But I think that fact says something
And yet, still I'll take the fall
~The Snowdog
51-55, M