I Am In Love With Someone Who Loves Someone Else
How Much Can I Take? God Please Give Me Strength.... I am In Love with a woman I've never met in person, but the real problem is, she's in love with someone else with whom she knows she has no real future. He's married and will never leave his family but somehow he still controls her. I thought I had helped her break away from him but it turned out I was wrong. She even lied to me, telling me she was engaged to someone else and that she couldn't talk with me because of him. When I'd ask, where are your pictures with him, couples do take shots together, she never could give me an answer. Finally she admitted he called and begged her to come back to him just before the holidays and she did. Shortly after, she started telling me how she felt nothing for me.
He wants to possess her but not give up anything to have her, and he just keeps her on the side. She on the other hand seems willing to give up her future, any hope for having a family of her own and really, any chance to be truly happy for him.
I LOVE HER! I would give up anything to be with her. At one point I really thought she was feeling the same towards me but the distance seems so insurmountable I don't think she really believes I will ever be with her so to protect her vulnerable feelings she has convinced herself she has no feelings nor ever did for me... or maybe he just told her that's what she needed to do since I was a threat to him keeping one of his many possessions.
What is really stressing me out is knowing she's with him. He keeps his wife and family along with many other possessions, they are all more important to him than her, but he's also having her at the same time. The woman I love is being had by someone not willing to give up anything for her.
People will tell me to forget about her but that's just something I can not do. She is the only one for me and at this point in my life, if I can't have her then I don't need anyone. So I am not giving up, I can't, I know, I simply know, that we are supposed to be together, as if God has ordained it and he is testing me to be sure I am worthy of her. I have to prove to both her and the Lord God Almighty that I am worthy, that I will never give up, that I will do whatever it takes, no matter how long it takes, to be with her.
He wants to possess her but not give up anything to have her, and he just keeps her on the side. She on the other hand seems willing to give up her future, any hope for having a family of her own and really, any chance to be truly happy for him.
I LOVE HER! I would give up anything to be with her. At one point I really thought she was feeling the same towards me but the distance seems so insurmountable I don't think she really believes I will ever be with her so to protect her vulnerable feelings she has convinced herself she has no feelings nor ever did for me... or maybe he just told her that's what she needed to do since I was a threat to him keeping one of his many possessions.
What is really stressing me out is knowing she's with him. He keeps his wife and family along with many other possessions, they are all more important to him than her, but he's also having her at the same time. The woman I love is being had by someone not willing to give up anything for her.
People will tell me to forget about her but that's just something I can not do. She is the only one for me and at this point in my life, if I can't have her then I don't need anyone. So I am not giving up, I can't, I know, I simply know, that we are supposed to be together, as if God has ordained it and he is testing me to be sure I am worthy of her. I have to prove to both her and the Lord God Almighty that I am worthy, that I will never give up, that I will do whatever it takes, no matter how long it takes, to be with her.
61-69, M
