I Wonder If You Miss Me Like I Miss You

I miss several people right now. I'm so lonely because almost all my friends are far away. Either online or in real life I know them, but moved to another state. I tried to get in contact with some old friends, but no luck with any of them. I probably did something to hurt them. Which sucks. I'm afraid I'll be too late to rebuild the friendships. I was too late with one friend and now she's dead. I just can't let it go. I can't find myself to let go that I never got the chance to see her one last time before she went. Anyways, if I get the chance to see the few close by friends I have, I might be able to get past this better.