Wish I could tell her this

Grateful to hear from you each time. Though I wish we could carry a conversation instead of how it is.
Surely there's ten minutes you could take out of your day?
I miss the way we used to be.
Each time I see someone that looks like you I cant take it.
I try to be calm. But I miss you. It's been almost a year since I've seen your face.
Why is it like this now?

Anyhoo, idle mind in wee hours is a devil's playground.
Trying to be positive. But definitely grateful for you