I miss you
Laying here wishing I could pack a bag and drive over to your place, to just sit and watch a movie and enjoy each other's company. Then I think on the fact that you'd probably be on your phone texting or getting calls from the many guys you'd entertain. The dreadful part of all this is that even though I died each time seeing u on your phone, I couldn't utter a word because we were "just friends."
I miss you terribly and December 8th will officially make 3 months since I parted ways with u to salvage what was left of my sanity. Leaving was the thing I wanted to do last and ended up doing it since I was heading for rock bottom. Sometimes I wish I could drive over to your house and just lay in your arms and forget about life for a min. I miss the way I felt whenever you'd randomly call or text me. I miss your touch, your kisses, I just miss us.
I'm moving away soon for work and I can't help but wish I could text u to tell about this opportunity since it's something you've known I was always interested in pursuing. I feel like you were the only one that understood my relationship with my family. I had to now painfully accept that you'd never grow to feel for me what I felt for u. I just couldn't sit around and handle being "just friends" when I never entertained thoughts that mimicked platonic friendship.
As the 3 month time line draws near, I promised that I'd reach out and apologize for all the awful things I said to u in September. It really wasn't your fault that you couldn't give me a relationship. It really isnt your fault that you're possibly into that guy more than me. I have been truly trying to accept. I think of you a lot and sometimes wonder how often, or if u ever think about me
I miss you terribly and December 8th will officially make 3 months since I parted ways with u to salvage what was left of my sanity. Leaving was the thing I wanted to do last and ended up doing it since I was heading for rock bottom. Sometimes I wish I could drive over to your house and just lay in your arms and forget about life for a min. I miss the way I felt whenever you'd randomly call or text me. I miss your touch, your kisses, I just miss us.
I'm moving away soon for work and I can't help but wish I could text u to tell about this opportunity since it's something you've known I was always interested in pursuing. I feel like you were the only one that understood my relationship with my family. I had to now painfully accept that you'd never grow to feel for me what I felt for u. I just couldn't sit around and handle being "just friends" when I never entertained thoughts that mimicked platonic friendship.
As the 3 month time line draws near, I promised that I'd reach out and apologize for all the awful things I said to u in September. It really wasn't your fault that you couldn't give me a relationship. It really isnt your fault that you're possibly into that guy more than me. I have been truly trying to accept. I think of you a lot and sometimes wonder how often, or if u ever think about me
26-30, F
