I miss my mom

This will be the first holidays where I don’t have my mom. I miss her incredibly and I still get the urge to call her. Sometimes I don’t want to be strong 💪 it’s hard having to act like everything is okay but when I am alone I am not. Since my mom passed I have felt the most loneliest I have ever felt. She was and is my best friend. I am sad and all I want to do is call my mom.