Some days are so much harder than others [I Miss You So Much]

I miss my parents every single day - it’s been 12 years since I lost them. They were killed in an accident when I was 7 years old. Some days are always harder than others…birthdays and Christmas, while celebrated, are always tinged with a sadness. Planning my future, it constantly hits me that they won’t be there for my big achievements, my milestones or even just to be part of the journey. The hardest days though, for me, are always Father’s Day and Mother’s Day - everywhere I go there are reminders…cards I’ll never get to buy, adverts for celebrations I can’t have, all over social media are posts gushing about parents and photos of everyone celebrating together and it feels like the knife in me is just twisting. I’d give anything to have one more day, one more memory, to hear their voices or most of all to have one more hug.

I hate this day so much

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english · 56-60, M

hey Soph, well i could sit and and tell you how proud they would be on how far you have come blah blah blah. i know you dont give a shite so im not going bull shite you. although i wonder am i going to piss you off on another level ,cos this is personal and what the fuck do i know about it your right i did nt lose my parents when i was seven, but i bet along with probably 60 % of the people on here can give you a hard luck story or even a heart break story. i guess im trying to let you know your not as alone as think a lot of people will tell you your parents are always with you they are still watching you,again everyone has a take on it. i think you need to find a place where its ok for you to be angry or sad or bitter, but you cant spend the rest of your life carrying all those feelings at once i understand its been all you have known and at 7 years old is not an age where you can even process the event let alone the emotions and think over the course of the last 11 years you have sorted it as best as anyone could have.The last thing your parents would want for you is this,it was an accident and the price was paid, the last thing they would want from you is to be bitter and angry and miss out on your own life i think you know that to be true. i know its easy for me to sit here and preach ,but when you carry that anger and hate in your heart for so long it takes its toil little ny little you need to break the routine you have got into setting yourself up for more sadness every year cos its what you know its familiar its unhealthy soph maybe its time for some changes. hey if you ever want to give me grief or chat maybe im a good listener take care Soph 🤗

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@english I don’t feel alone, I know there are so many that feel the pain I feel. For the most part I am happy and I live my life. But there are days when the pain hits me like wave after wave crashing on rocks and it’s suffocating