Every single day [I Miss You So Much]

The hardest part is forgetting, I play home videos to remember your voices. I spend hours with photographs memorising your faces and trying desperately to remember how you looked when I saw you last. Orphan is a word that doesn’t even come close to describing the void my life became when you left. I wish I knew your thoughts now, sometimes I try desperately to listen for your voices when I don’t know what to do. I wonder what you would have been like as parents through my teen years, what would I be like if I hadn’t lost you? I try to be a good person, someone you could be proud of, i like to think I have parts of each of you within me. I love you so much, missing you is still the worst pain imaginable. Some days all I want is you to hug me and tell me you love me and help the pain to go away.

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splendid · 41-45, M

Sophie, I am very sorry that you lost your parents! I have been very fortunate, so cannot fully understand what it is like, but now that I know, I will pray for you.

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@splendid I lost them when I was 7

splendid · 41-45, M

@SW-User Did your nana raise you after that? You are very fortunate to have her.

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@splendid she did initially but then my older brother moved back home and became my legal guardian

splendid · 41-45, M

@SW-User You lost your parents at a very young age. I am heartbroken to learn this. I know it's easy for me to say all this. Please realize I am being earnest.