I Miss You More Than You Will Ever Know

Grandma passed away two weeks ago.

I am doing ok for the most part. Only sobbing here and there . It feels unreal to me like I dont feel like she is gone. But sometimes when I think of her I cry. I feel empty. Its not the heart aching hurt. Its the emptiness and me refusing to accept the truth. I wish I am the one who died, not her. I dont want her to go