I Miss You More Than You Will Ever Know

You were the one! The one that I had been in love with since I was 16. You didn't know it but I did. When ours lives collided I knew I was gonna marry you. I was so happy, so consumed with love & joy. Babies came & my love for you grew deep. As time went on I got sick. You couldn't handle it and chose your job over the kids and I. You allowed your family to belittle me constantly & to brainwash the kids. Even still I loved you unconditionally. Then one day you say you don't love me like that. That you know longer want to work on this marriage but thank me for my hard work to save it. I struggle to make sense of what is happening. Do you love me? Why not? What is wrong with me? Do my kids love me? Why not what is wrong with me? The day comes I can't handle another weekend held up in my room crying because you won't even acknowledge me. I ask what you want,! you say I don't know. Not good enough. Choose! You say I've been trying to tell You for a long time I want out. Then why the head games? why not just leave? Finally I have answers, finally I can move, finally life starts again. You have moved on & even married again so quick but I still dream of us of what should have been. I love you, I literally always have & unfortunately I always will.