I Wish You Missed Me As Much As I Miss You

While you are out trying to find a whiskey drinking, makeup mask wearing, skin and bones dark scene girl to love you. I have, sense I was 19, wanted to love you. But i'm newly sober, eyeliner is my makeup mask with a little lipstick every now and again to spice it up and I'm not skin and bones but i'm definitely not fat...maybe phat but we both admit to that. We were such great friends, what happened? Now you're trying so hard to pull yourself out of your depression and I want nothing more than to reach out. How? So many years ago I confessed my love and was made to look like a fool, now just to reach out to say Hello, i thought about you today' is weird and awkward. I never should have dated your cousin, you know it wasn't right, especially with what he did that led me to finally get my family involved and leave him. You once beat guys up for hitting a girl, family is blood I get it, but at that point in time i was family...No one in that family helped me everyone was to afraid of him, maybe you were too, afraid of what he might do. I forgive you, and everyone else for not protecting me cause your cousin was a scary dude. However, I still feel how I felt then, and you keep saying you're looking for the type of love that only a fellow Leo can give you, Everything you say you want I am wanting to give you, we've always been two peas in a pod....I miss you, even if we can only be friends I MISS YOU!