well, here’s the update nobody asked for. 🥲

i left ryan last night. things had been so good for the past week or two..we were getting along, everything felt fine, and for a minute i really thought maybe things were finally going to be okay.

until i snooped through his phone and saw him talking to a bunch of other females. 😂

i am SICK. like genuinely heartbroken, hurt, devastated… i feel like i could throw up. 💔 i keep asking myself when this feeling is going to stop because right now it feels like a complete nightmare.

i’m so incredibly thankful for my mom, my sister, and my bestest friend megggg 🖤✨ for being there for me, helping me move out, loving me through this, sending me so much support, and giving me all the hugs i’ve desperately needed. i truly don’t know what i’d do without them. my girl & i are forever grateful for our people. my support system is seriously the greatest. 🤞🏼

i’m terrified of what the future looks like now. he’s already said he’s going to fight me for custody, and that honestly scares me more than anything. i’m worried, overwhelmed, and so heartbroken that i can barely sleep or eat.

i don’t know what happens next. i don’t know what my life is going to look like. but i’m praying…praying for strength, praying for healing, praying everything works out the way it’s supposed to, and praying that one day this doesn’t hurt so damn much.

right now, i’m just taking it one day at a time. 🖤✨