I don't know
I'm just going to vent. I never said bad things about him. Even after months of being apart I still prayed to god to give him happiness, safety and to be loved. He's got it now with her and I couldn't be even more proud that he does.
He and I had a wonderful time together when we were dating. He just cares so much and gave me his all just like I did. I admit it changed me so much. I never thought I would be in this position a year later without him. I wouldn't give what we had a do over because I know that it wouldn't change anything.
I was scared to death of losing him I should have just said l need constant reassurance. I'm an over thinker, we worry about the smallest things and apologize too much. He would always reassure me.
I was for sure thinking I was going to spend the rest of my life with him. I even gave him a necklace that meant a lot to me. He still has it but doesn't wear it. His gf told me he stored it away. She told me this a while back after telling me to back off kindly (what a sweetheart, no really she is)
I spent the last year and some of this year crying my eyes out. Seeking comfort into looking into the coincidences too much. I thought he would come back, but to ensure I don't contact him again he deleted his Facebook. I never wanted that ever. I feel so bad that I let my weakness of being alone get to him like that. We haven't spoken since we broke up.
I honestly think this relationship changed me in so many ways, but it also made me learn that real love is out there. I sit here thinking about him, because I just so bad want to tell him thank you. Eventually he'll see me in person probably married to her. He'll look back and i won't because I'll be moved on by then , hopefully. See that she's strong. I know I am now, but right now it's hard to see it.
Anyways I'm sure I'll add more to come.
He and I had a wonderful time together when we were dating. He just cares so much and gave me his all just like I did. I admit it changed me so much. I never thought I would be in this position a year later without him. I wouldn't give what we had a do over because I know that it wouldn't change anything.
I was scared to death of losing him I should have just said l need constant reassurance. I'm an over thinker, we worry about the smallest things and apologize too much. He would always reassure me.
I was for sure thinking I was going to spend the rest of my life with him. I even gave him a necklace that meant a lot to me. He still has it but doesn't wear it. His gf told me he stored it away. She told me this a while back after telling me to back off kindly (what a sweetheart, no really she is)
I spent the last year and some of this year crying my eyes out. Seeking comfort into looking into the coincidences too much. I thought he would come back, but to ensure I don't contact him again he deleted his Facebook. I never wanted that ever. I feel so bad that I let my weakness of being alone get to him like that. We haven't spoken since we broke up.
I honestly think this relationship changed me in so many ways, but it also made me learn that real love is out there. I sit here thinking about him, because I just so bad want to tell him thank you. Eventually he'll see me in person probably married to her. He'll look back and i won't because I'll be moved on by then , hopefully. See that she's strong. I know I am now, but right now it's hard to see it.
Anyways I'm sure I'll add more to come.
26-30, F
