I HATE YOU

With all my heart. All I ever wanted was your friendship. But you were so obsessed with attracting friends and lovers you couldn't be bothered. Sometimes I think. If I had the chance to hurt you.. hit you.. or whatever would I do it.. as much as I wish I would do that. I can't. If you were in front of me I would cry and just ask why you never wanted to stay close to me like you were years ago when we first met. That hurt will never end.. that is why I hate you, but still love you in some impossible and inexplicable way.