Break up update

So it's been a couple of days...I had a friend over and we got drunk last night and I got really triggered cause she used to hate when I drank but would love when I drunk texted her how much I missed and loved her and it was kinda a hard blow that I couldn't do that yesterday...I just stayed up till 2am with my friend drunk texting people..I do feel better but it still hurts a lot
PS I'm very hungover