I Have a Broken Heart

What is there to really say? I've loved and lost more than a few times. When I live my life accepting my broken heart, I survive. As soon as I let someone in, they tell me everything I want to hear. I always find out it was a bunch of bull shit! Am I that desperate for real love that there is a big target on my face saying get this guy, he looks stupid enough? I went outside the box here recently and met someone online. I know I'm an idiot for trying. Well anyway it was just casual conversation til one day I put my feelings out there. She started sounding so perfect for my life. Being a single parent of 5 makes having a relationship damn near impossible. This girl seemed like she walked out of my dreams. She is beautiful beyond my dreams. Everything was seeming so perfect until 2 days ago when I realized I was chasing a unicorn. I spoke with her this morning but I feel everything she told me was a lie. I hurt so much because I let my guard down and put my heart out there. This was the last time I make that mistake. No more love! I know I'm not the guy females are attracted to. I guess my journey is mine alone.