Just Sharing... And looking for some simpathy
Well... Apart from being a mess and a wreck, I just wanted to get my heart out there!
Never been perfect, in fact, I've been known for making many mistakes, and always struggled to show love to those I love, although there's never been any doubt for them that I Do love them. I had these phases where I'd drink and do drugs for a few weeks in a row and then stop and back to normal.. promised id stop and I would, for a few months.. Love Wise, I have always been very loyal and Faithfull, and always chose to be with loved ones over anyone else. In the beginning of my latest relationship, which was and still is the most important to me as we looked and felt so good and right together... so complete.. my gf and I we meant to go and get me some help to stop those binges I'd go on every now and then. And in October 10th I had an appointment to go and get proper treatment, mental as well. The week after, a great week 2gether, full of promises on both ends, me clean already, one beautiful Thursday and Friday we had the best 2 days and nights of our lives, Saturday afternoon a lovely siesta, she woke me up with a nice juicy kiss and said - "baby I'm going to work from 19.00 till 23.00 so I'll see u later, love U lots baby" which was normal cause she did have a part time at a hotel at those hours and early mornings as well, from 07.00 till 12.00 and then by midnight she called me and did say she was going to work next morning as well and was sleeping at her dad's which was near the hotel and roughly 15kilometers from our house..
2 days went by and she texted me saying she was sorry but she didn't say it before but she had moved to another country and she couldn't bring herself to tell me cause she knew I wouldn't support her choice and she had always dreamt of a better life. I told her she could have said anyways and we could have gone together and there were many options for us.. she then said she wanted to focus on her and has completely ghosted me while never went back online on any social platform while still has all of them..
its killing me..
her fam won't say a thing either but they swear there ain't no1 else involved but I should move on.
how can I.. how can one do when her clothes, her personal belongings still here... It's a pain that I can't even describe.
May the light brighten my was soon cause it's not getting easier.
Peace
Never been perfect, in fact, I've been known for making many mistakes, and always struggled to show love to those I love, although there's never been any doubt for them that I Do love them. I had these phases where I'd drink and do drugs for a few weeks in a row and then stop and back to normal.. promised id stop and I would, for a few months.. Love Wise, I have always been very loyal and Faithfull, and always chose to be with loved ones over anyone else. In the beginning of my latest relationship, which was and still is the most important to me as we looked and felt so good and right together... so complete.. my gf and I we meant to go and get me some help to stop those binges I'd go on every now and then. And in October 10th I had an appointment to go and get proper treatment, mental as well. The week after, a great week 2gether, full of promises on both ends, me clean already, one beautiful Thursday and Friday we had the best 2 days and nights of our lives, Saturday afternoon a lovely siesta, she woke me up with a nice juicy kiss and said - "baby I'm going to work from 19.00 till 23.00 so I'll see u later, love U lots baby" which was normal cause she did have a part time at a hotel at those hours and early mornings as well, from 07.00 till 12.00 and then by midnight she called me and did say she was going to work next morning as well and was sleeping at her dad's which was near the hotel and roughly 15kilometers from our house..
2 days went by and she texted me saying she was sorry but she didn't say it before but she had moved to another country and she couldn't bring herself to tell me cause she knew I wouldn't support her choice and she had always dreamt of a better life. I told her she could have said anyways and we could have gone together and there were many options for us.. she then said she wanted to focus on her and has completely ghosted me while never went back online on any social platform while still has all of them..
its killing me..
her fam won't say a thing either but they swear there ain't no1 else involved but I should move on.
how can I.. how can one do when her clothes, her personal belongings still here... It's a pain that I can't even describe.
May the light brighten my was soon cause it's not getting easier.
Peace
36-40, M
