It's starting to get really hard not to take this stuff to heart. It's really overwhelming and I am heartbroken

I am just breaking down I can't take any more from the universe right now. I've already been kicked in the gut enough already. What did I do to deserve this treatment? What did I do because it really seems to be getting worse day from day and not better and I don't understand why I can't catch a break.

I am losing hope