I Have a Broken Heart and I Will Always Hurt

So I texted my ex and yelled at him to no avail. I didn't know what else to do. I'm so lost and broken and I know it won't make any difference but I want him to know what he did to me, what he did to my little girl. I don't know why I just do. I will never be able to let go of him and I know that. I'm done venting all my emotions onto him now though. It doesn't make any difference to him how I feel or what he did or anything. It will never change anything. I know that with each passing day, week, and month it will become easier because it will slowly fade and it will no longer constantly be on my mind. I know I just have to muddle through my days until I get to that point, but it is always easier said than done. I will continue to struggle every day, waking up in the middle of the night crying, wanting it all to stop. But I know one day it will. I just have to wait. My heart will always be broken, but at least one day I won't think of him every moment and miss his smell his smile his touch all the time. One day I won't dread the thought of coming home and trying to sleep without him next to me. I won't dread waking up to an empty bed instead of him smiling and giving me a good morning kiss.