I Am Heart Broken

Let's call him XM. XM and I knew each other since we were 11-12. We liked each other. Fast forward to earlier this year, we reconnected. I thought this was a soul mate connection. He told me we had a connection and I catch his attention. Two days ago, he tells me we are just friends ant that is it. For months, I been running on the emotional transwheel texting him and I keep cutting him off and going back. He was very apathetic to my feelings for him. He told me that we are just friends and I am not his girlfriend so I need to get over it. My feelings and heart was crushed so deeply. I told him I am cutting off our friendship and good luck to him. I changed my number. I texted him from this anonymous app about how I really feel so I can get everything I want to say out.

It was necessary for me to cut him off because it was mentally draining. I love and care too deeply and he just doesn't care. So I am giving up on men seriously...I am still heartbroken.