I still believe

but I've been very badly burned by love. It's not turned to hate yet but both emotions are intense, opposite ones that can activate the same brain regions and frequently overlap in relationships. I promised myself not to fall in love any more but it did happen again. When I love deeply, I nowadays sense that I become oh so vulnerable. I know that it can turn into hatred when trust is broken, but for me personally it depletes my self-love even more. Last time I told someone that I hate the sudden intensity and then the drop into nothingness yet again. I've been treated to that dance so many times before. It depletes me, I warn then, but the other party just dances on. Not everyone is as strong. Nor is everyone turning love into nothingness or even hate. It lasts with me. I do warn but I'm taken for the dance nevertheless and then dropped yet again. I still believe though because otherwise I can't exist, dance nor trust ever more.