I Don't Say I Love You Unless I Mean It

I remember the first time I told him I was in love with him. It was about a month after we first began messaging and talking.

His answer was that we hadn't even met in person yet so basically...how could I?

It stung. It really did. I'm not a person who takes a thing like love lightly and for me even say it in the first place was taking a huge risk.

I feel like that's when I began to slowly start backing away from him. It's when we began this lovers dance.

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Sunscape99 · 51-55, F

Jay- I am very emotional. Not to mean I go around crying or ranting and raging all of,the time. I feel my emotions very deeply and have let myself explore these emotions when they arise. I want to be comfortable with them and not let them control me as they easily have.

Wistful- you are exactly right my friend. I love your last statement" when you have nothing to be ashamed of, neither will he." Could you elaborate a bit more on that?

Enchanted, I have loved this man even before I knew who he was. My feelings were very hurt but...it was necessary for him so it would bring up His own insecurties and encourage him to begin healing. He believes Love is a lie. I hope he sees otherwise.