I love him and I let him go

He’s happier now and that is the most important thing. I will always love him, but I was toxic at the time due to mental illnesses and low motivation to change my life. I let him go so he could find less complicated love and someone closer to home. I miss him everyday but knowing he found a nice lady to marry and heal his heart makes me realize it was the right thing to do although it cost me my true love and soulmate. He is never coming back even as just a good friend. Eventually the pain will dull over time but it will never fully disappear. I don’t think I will find anyone else again as long as I live. Surprisingly, I’m ok with being single for the rest of my life. It’s better that way I feel.