The Growing Power of Ambivalence

Here within the distance
Inside all this time and space
The ambivalence is growing
To take up our love's space

The sadness that once was pain
The pain that now is fading
Replaced by ambivalence
And the changes it's creating

I feel my brain rewiring
I hear my heart constructing walls
I see my soul curling up inside
To make itself seem small

The memories still linger there
I can still recall the ways
Of how your love once felt to me
But it's like feeling through a haze

And I doubt I'll ever love again
For fear of all that pain
That drove my soul into the ground
And forced my heart to change
The growing power of ambivalence
Has my whole world rearranged

~The Snowdog