I miss feeling wanted

Imma be honest... last relationship was pretty shitty. She couldn't take accountability, never genuinely apologized, belittled my feelings and made everything about her and how she feels, and freaky time was only when she wanted it. She would expect me to be okay being neglected when she got busy with things, but the second I got busy with my own things and had to cut down on time spent with her, she would always get upset and say idgaf about her and how she doesn't feel wanted... BUT THE SECOND I SAY I DON'T FEEL WANTED???

Yeah, while I loved her so much and still kinda do... I'm glad it's over. It was exhausting..