I want to experience real passion. Not just lust. I want to experience someone being so obsessed with me their hunger for me never seems to be satisfied. And yet we can still be comfortable just in the room with one another. I want to experience someone who gives me a smile everytime they look at me. Kisses me like they mean it…I want something so real and pure; that I end up in a deep depression for the rest of my life when it ends.
@londonbr1dg3 well hopefully youre more elastic that I, that heartbreak and recovery almist never seems worth it. But I do hope you find what youre looking for
@londonbr1dg3 If it's true passion & love, the only way it ends is with the death of one of the people. Then the other lives in solitude for THEIR remaining time alive. That was the kind of love my parents had..... Dated for four years, married 54 years until my mother died, ad lived in solitude for eight years until he died. The room lit up for one whenever the other entered & they were rarely apart. Nine kids (of which I'm the youngest & I'm getting old now). Lost one to suicide at a young age & my mother was never the same again. THAT kind of love???
@PinkMoon what even makes you think I ever stopped seeing a therapist anyways? Just cause I want to be in a real relationship with someone that actually loves me?
Yes, I used to want something like that too Someone who truly understands me, loves deeply, and feels like peace and passion at the same time. But life doesn’t always turn out the way we imagine 😄 Now Iam married, and I’ve learned that reality is often very different from the dreams we once had 🙄
hmm. this world is screwed up. Most girls like the idea of Body count. I don't, I can't see my self given my self to many people. Obsession sis beautiful game but it only works for those that understand that game and know when to curve its limits.
@IsawDDevil I think way too many people obsess with body count in general. Men mostly but I agree too many women to want a higher count. Sometimes I wish I was a bird or something that mates for life. This shit sucks
@londonbr1dg3 You know when I was kid I wanted to fornicated with only hot girls, but then I ran into the idea of running out of girls and I probably never seeing those hot girls again. I just know most high body count girls seems like their soul was sucked out. I've been obsesses but I also understood boundaries am not a creeper. I also know that we are not getting younger and youth and beauty is fleeting.
@Younameit I used to love a girl and stopped loving her. But then I realize if I could be in paradise with one person and never break that covenant of marriage for eternity we will have to be enlightened to see that's stopping loving a girl or guy is effect of the none spiritual world. It will take two enlightenment with get understanding to get there.
I don't believe in it anymore for myself in this lifetime, which at first I was sad about but now I feel is also somewhat freeing.
I kind of wish I could completely destroy my ability to pairbond. I used to be a hopeless romantic, but the irony for me is that the pain I remember of being lonely and pining for love was never as bad as the pain of stacked romantic trauma.
When I was an angsty broody teen pining for love and romance, it was like I was deluded and hyper-idealizing something I in truth did not understand at all.
I felt as though love was something that could and would eventually solve my problems.
It has mostly served to compound them, a lot.
Sometimes I miss the melancholy of my childish romantic dreams, because in contrast the stark reality has been very heavy.
I guess now the main trap I have to avoid is believing that dismantling my ability to pairbond completely would be either healthy, attainable or entirely liberating.
I have a feeling that if I actually did that, I would lose a part of myself and become completely insane overtime.
