You try Again 🤍🤍🤍
You were sick and there was no one to treat you.
You were hungry and there was no one to feed you.
You were cold and there was no one to shelter you.
You were in danger and there was no one to keep you safe.
I was with you,
much like you,
there was no one to save me.
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Today and every single day I am alive I try to become the person who would have saved us both.
Every single day, whether I fail or succeed, I do it.
I have done endless work still couldn’t buy peace or a single meal, in my youth, to be that person.
I failed and I succeeded and I failed and I succeeded and I failed..
I swept floors.
I cleaned bathrooms.
I fixed machines I couldn't afford to own.
I cleaned dishes while hungry.
I studied until my eyes and my brain burned.
I survived the cruelty of men who were supposed to
protect me, simply because I was a girl.
I became the person who saves by going through more suffering, more struggles, more disillusionment.
I suffered other people.
I suffered myself.
_______
When the world leaves you in the cold, you can either freeze, or you can become the fire, the warmth for those like you, even when they have no awareness of their debts.
Sacrifice comes with the need for purpose.
And the need for balance.
And the need for reflection.
Having without giving and giving without having are the same.
They are both an injustice.
And many of us often forget that.
There is a debt in giving and in receiving.
Both are debts.
It needs to be repeated many times.
Both are debts.
_______
Anyone can choose to be the fire.
Not everyone understands it is a debt.
It needs to be said again.
Fire warms and burns and feeds even on itself.
Fire needs and it is needed.
It is not only about mothering the motherless,
Not about heal broken bones..
It is much more than that.
And you do it
You have to
Not out of pride
You do it because of knowing the exact weight of suffering without a purpose.
You try again.
You suffer again
By choice.
For a purpose.
You know the exact weight of molding suffering to breed refuge.
And you know it is worth it.
You were hungry and there was no one to feed you.
You were cold and there was no one to shelter you.
You were in danger and there was no one to keep you safe.
I was with you,
much like you,
there was no one to save me.
____
Today and every single day I am alive I try to become the person who would have saved us both.
Every single day, whether I fail or succeed, I do it.
I have done endless work still couldn’t buy peace or a single meal, in my youth, to be that person.
I failed and I succeeded and I failed and I succeeded and I failed..
I swept floors.
I cleaned bathrooms.
I fixed machines I couldn't afford to own.
I cleaned dishes while hungry.
I studied until my eyes and my brain burned.
I survived the cruelty of men who were supposed to
protect me, simply because I was a girl.
I became the person who saves by going through more suffering, more struggles, more disillusionment.
I suffered other people.
I suffered myself.
_______
When the world leaves you in the cold, you can either freeze, or you can become the fire, the warmth for those like you, even when they have no awareness of their debts.
Sacrifice comes with the need for purpose.
And the need for balance.
And the need for reflection.
Having without giving and giving without having are the same.
They are both an injustice.
And many of us often forget that.
There is a debt in giving and in receiving.
Both are debts.
It needs to be repeated many times.
Both are debts.
_______
Anyone can choose to be the fire.
Not everyone understands it is a debt.
It needs to be said again.
Fire warms and burns and feeds even on itself.
Fire needs and it is needed.
It is not only about mothering the motherless,
Not about heal broken bones..
It is much more than that.
And you do it
You have to
Not out of pride
You do it because of knowing the exact weight of suffering without a purpose.
You try again.
You suffer again
By choice.
For a purpose.
You know the exact weight of molding suffering to breed refuge.
And you know it is worth it.
