The most powerful and lasting emotion of all

I think the jury is still out on whether what I felt for a particular girl was healthy or very unhealthy. It probably is a matter of degree and what I ended up feeling was all- consuming , nothing else really mattered. Just to be in her company was utter contentment , the ultimate justification for life. We experienced so much total bliss together.She seemed to sense there was no way of tempering it; She' said more than once she had to either run away or commit suicide and she knew she was ending any hope of future happiness for both of us. Why it had to have a negative ending ls beyond my understanding. Without her I was nothing; I became a completely different person after it failed. I know to most people that must seem pathetic but that's the way it is, even sixty years later.She told my sister recently she's still in love with me. End of story !