Unconditional love

I'm having a trauma response to losing someone again, but that doesn't make them responsible in the slightest.

I know the past few years have been really hard and I couldn't come out of it the same. I don't like some of the ways I've had to get by, I don't really like certain things about me now, but I'm still me. I think, still worth it, because I found love for myself in my darkest moments. I mostly pushed for my son, but in being his Mom I've discovered and rediscovered my worth over and over. I was born to grow but I was born in the shadows of my parents who couldn't deal with me as I was. I can give that unconditional love to my son now though.

Unconditional love is what I need. It's what I need to give. If my boy is the only person I ever get to share my love with, it will be an incredible life. I don't care if I die alone af, I broke cycles. I broke into the light of myself. It sure as hell didn't make anything easier or more peaceful. Maybe not yet anyway...

"The woods are lovely, dark and deep,
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep."