What is love?

I don’t think I can ever say I have ever felt romantic love. Of course, I have experienced things like having crushes, infatuation, moments where my heart skips a beat, and all that. But I have never felt love for someone and vice versa. Well yes I have liked people but love is a different realm for me. I know I’m young and there are other things to think about, but I just can’t help it. I crave to love someone and for them to love me back. I’ve been in and out of the dating phase far too many times this year. It sucks, to say the least. I always end up feeling used, unlovable, and it just takes such a hit on me. What makes matters worse is that I don’t know how to love. I’m terrible at showing affection and I’ve always been shy. This is most likely something I have to work on for myself. There was this saying I heard that you always find love in the most unexpected ways. Like it isn’t something we should be actively searching for. I try to stop looking for love and such, but I always find myself searching for it again. I want to believe that someone, somewhere, is a person I am capable of loving, I really do. I know that there are other ways to fill the “void” but you can’t blame me for wanting to experience something i’ve never experienced.