She is engaged

So just got news that she got engaged
i swear to god that i love her

for half an hour i didnt allow my tears
but now i am writing and my eyes are
simply disobeying me

I know i am strong as i been through a lot
in life and i still know how to smile and
i still got the power to make others smile

but she looks beautiful in that dress
though the color is different from what
i wanted for her

i have never had much luck but i dont
generally complain

i am not rich but i am fine with it
as i just enjoy simple life more

the start of my love for her was childhood
at that time i had no idea what love is

what attraction is

she was loud and annoying but i liked her
years passed we got separated

met her again in teen fell again
she got more beautiful n sensible

I am just gonna skip the stupid cheesy
things i did for her

what i am about to say might sound odd
but her face in my mind helped me sleep
at nights when i was restless or too stressed

for a long time i didnt confess but when i
did maybe i messed up

maybe she never believed me or didnt believe someone so stupid can exist

I am not mad at my lord Allah nor
at destiny or fate

nor at her

I am just saying to myself its ok
to be honest i have already cried a lot in life

so i thought my tears went dry for good
but i guess i am not there yet

I am still a weak human

honestly i dont hate the guy who got her
though to be honest i am a little more pretty
than him

we all have types

her smile was genuine and the way she looks at him

i can feel her commitment towards to him

I want to be loved back more than i ever wanted

i know most people dont care but i also know some care

dont give me sympathy instead scold me for being weak

i swear i love her

i know i must stay away from now on

i am not some saint so i will never ask her to be just friends keep her in life that way

i am very straight forward

she looks beautiful in that dress