Was gonna go in to get an IUD

but it can make your period heavier and cause more cramping and that's a risk the doctor pointed out because I already have issues. They're still trying to figure out what my issues are with my uterus. I still vomit sometimes from the pain and I bleed heavily so it's a no go even with the nonhormonal version. There was a time when I didn't care what anyone did to me so I ended up with bad people. Yet now it's more so because I love the person I'm with. Like we take risks, we both know the risks, yet his pull out game be 👌solid. I want to have a baby, but also know now isn't the time so we're not taking anymore risks just because I want to spend more time with him....just us.

Like there are times when we make love when I think, "I love this man so much". Like the way he looks at me as if I am something so special and precious. He tells me he loves me and we hold hands. He'll whisper, "I love you so much honey". Or tell me how beautiful I am. And like I could care less what happens because our bond is solid. I feel secure, to the point where it's like I want to lose control. He's stable as well.He wants a baby as well but we both agreed we need to wait a little longer if I want one. At least a few more years. At least. But if it happens...it happens. Me being able to carry full term would be a miracle in of itself.

I take risks not because I don't love myself. It's not that anymore, more so I take risks because I love my partner. I feel safe, secure, and I know he would still be there even if it happened.