If i ever said I love you or that we were friends..
I still love you.. and we still are.
Paths converge and diverge.. the future is incertain for a reason. That's the way it needs to be. You may have left and you may have returned, and you may even leave again. Some people I miss with all my heart are still here. Right in front of me, but both refuse to reach, and that's ok with me. I'll just keep missing them, feeling who they still are to me, who they will always be to me.
What is in your head and what you think or imagine others are thinking, is rarely what is really happening. What is real is what you feel. What we feel. Whatever that feeling is that is shared between us, that for every kind of relationship is unique. That's all that is real or should matter to us.
But please, don't ever worry.. you and I.. we will walk together on the same path again, for this is not the end, not even close to it.
@HannibalAteMeOut thank you.. I hope so. Im always at war within myself.. fighting ghosts of of a world that is always trying to destroy me. Imagining terrible things coming from people i know care for me. Every day is a fight to stay in this place i just wrote about. And today i made it.. i hope i can stay here for a while longer and i hope some who are still fighting, can relate and be comforted too.
@HannibalAteMeOut me too.. now cut me open and let all the light. butterflies, and flowers out to grow wild and spread everywhere they need to be.. youre the only one i trust with this procedure!!
@Magenta 💙🙏 thank you. These kind of feelings tend to come and go in waves. My surfing skills are slowly, but surely improving. Tomorrow maybe a total whiteout though.. haha just have to wait and see.
@Coppercoil I used to block my love on occasion when we first met. A fact I find hilarious, but he still feels salty about. It was complex. I hope the bird flies through the open window.
