Instant satisfaction

Gosh, this morning I found out what ails me for decades. It's the constant want for instant satisfaction. The desire to be made one with the other. To feel like there's warmth and comfort and relieve for ever. Of course, it can't last. Any orgasmic moment is just momentary. The desire though is lasting. Perhaps I need to made that of more use. Put that dormant energy into making something completely different. Love, loved, and love. I feel like a cat now and that's more interesting a feel than before. Less down, more acceptance of life and love.