Somebody should fkn love me…
I don’t feel like shit about myself at all anymore. I’ve got a beautiful life, no not perfect, it’s just that I’m SO strong I’ve gotten through so much, I believe in myself. All my life I’ve been kind and giving and while it hasn’t always paid off, it’s made life interesting and meaningful. My sense of adventure is off the charts. I have an amazing son, a house, a van that doubles as a home, financially good, I’m a talented creative, a natural blonde, honest, healthy and I can suck cock for hours. At this point I’m just looking for a way to give, likely to homeless, and build up an art studio and give free classes to kids. I have so many possibilities for a grand life, if someone would be into loving, caring, sharing and giving. It’s strange to me I haven’t met someone who really sees me AND wants to cuddle up with me every night. Im cool af, not possessive or jealous, not naggy, complainy or full of anxiety. My ego is rattling around somewhere, so I am not attracted to looks so much as I am to the person within.
Im not cocky, not at all 😆 but confident in my ability to be a good partner. Because I’m a good mom and I’m good to myself in a lasting way. I have an insatiable sex drive and zero inhibition.
But mostly, they come and go. And it doesn’t even hurt anymore. Im actually okay with it. It’s honest at least. And fun while it lasts.
But I’m asking the universe for a constant in my life. Someone who won’t leave me alone, use me or have me wondering if I will hear from them again. Someone to believe in. They would have to be pretty strong, smart and emotionally secure, and that seems like an incredibly rare set of qualities. But, here I am, growing to the sun, looking for spiritual, emotional, mental nourishment. And I must add, if it never happens, if love never comes, I am okay with that because I’ve lived so well. People think my life is charmed and in ways it is, I don’t project my pain. But I’ve experienced so much death, I know how to live.
I wish for someone to share this beautiful existence with 🖤
Im not cocky, not at all 😆 but confident in my ability to be a good partner. Because I’m a good mom and I’m good to myself in a lasting way. I have an insatiable sex drive and zero inhibition.
But mostly, they come and go. And it doesn’t even hurt anymore. Im actually okay with it. It’s honest at least. And fun while it lasts.
But I’m asking the universe for a constant in my life. Someone who won’t leave me alone, use me or have me wondering if I will hear from them again. Someone to believe in. They would have to be pretty strong, smart and emotionally secure, and that seems like an incredibly rare set of qualities. But, here I am, growing to the sun, looking for spiritual, emotional, mental nourishment. And I must add, if it never happens, if love never comes, I am okay with that because I’ve lived so well. People think my life is charmed and in ways it is, I don’t project my pain. But I’ve experienced so much death, I know how to live.
I wish for someone to share this beautiful existence with 🖤
