this is kinda random but like yeah...im a bit concerned

i keep getting random crushes on a specific group of people while knowing that they would never ever ever date me unless i miraculously got a glow up which makes me look 728273729 times prettier and very different. ig im already quite pretty? i think, but yeah yk. im seen as the weird quiet goth girl im not even really goth but yeah whatever. its just that all of the good looking boys type in my school is chavs. i go to like the most british blonde blue eyed chavvy basic white school in my whole city like pls save me babes. basically yeah.

so basically their type is fake tanned, skin cancer, medium height blondies with the most basic style that do weed and are most likely going to grow up to be crackheads or prostitutes.

and im none of that shit obvs.

im ?kind of? tanned, tall, brunette with actually good style and i dont do weed at my young age because uhm...

and im not gonna grow up to be a crackhead or a prostitute. i dont think.

but like yeah.

i jus dk what to do.

and like some of them ugly asf its just their amazing little personality.

like.....

yeah

and im a bit too depressed to even try hint i like them.

some of them try like flirt with me but like😟😟

idk what to say to them LMFAOAO

one of them is like friends with all the drug dealers in london LMFAO

thats one of the reasons

plus im not popular💔💔

so yeah help im tryna glow up

im going holidays this summer anyways so yeahhh

i might get a tan too so like aaaa excitement

kinda the only reason im not sobbing my eyes out rn