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deathfairy yeah, I learned a lot. One thing mentioned by a Couple of my previous partners is that they don’t know what’s going on. “ we were doing so well, and now I’m confused and don’t know what’s going on.” And I would be like “I don’t either”. It’s so weird, I’d be in love and head over heels for them one minute and then want nothing to do with them the next. Which I know is really hard for whoever my partner is to be in a relationship where you feel so loved and then neglected and nothing you can do help.
The expectations were interesting and relatable. And helped me have a more clear understanding on why I’m so hot and cold in relationships.
To have the” ideal” relationship (then it would be pain free). Highly sensitive, craves attention. Mistakes intensity for intimacy. Devalues when disappointed and the intense “good” feelings are gone.
Any form of disappointment immediately leads to a mood change for me in my partner. Which is scary because people aren’t perfect but in my mind I have this idea of a perfect relationship and if it’s not them that’s a risk of being let down and hurt. Aka as abandonment issues so I lose interest and check out of the relationship. This makes sense when it comes to the confusion for me on certain relationships I had.